I am down with super bad flu, bad cough, slight fever, and unable to shit it out. Great. I am down on my luck. My handphone gone. I am sick. My pencil box lost.

PS: i lost my pencil box together with my OB book, OB book can lent from people but my pencil box will be gone forever and ever.

I feel so stupid and fcuk up by myself. Sick and tired of the life of rushing projects. Going to sleep already. I just pray some kind soul will leave my pencil box at the helpdesk and I can get it back. Well the chances is super low. So forget it.

SUPER FCUK UP !!!!

I NEVER FELT SO STUPID IN MYSELF BEFORE. I LOST MY PENCIL BOX. YESH NOTHING BIG, NOTHING SO EXPENSIVE, BUT THE PENCIL BOX HAVE BEING WITH ME SINCE SECONDARY 3 OR 4. I FORGOTTEN, BUT THIS PENCIL BOX DEFINITELY HAVE ACCOMPANY THROUGH MY O LEVEL.

AND NOW THIS IS LOST.

MY FULL SET COLLECTION OF REXGRIP PEN. FCUK. YEAH NOT NOTHING EXPENSIVE PEN, BUT I DID NOT BUY THIS PEN AT ONE GO BUT ONE AT A TIME. AND AND AND, I JUST BOUGHT ANOTHER NEW COLOUR TODAY TO ADD TO THEM. NOW, I AM ONLY LEFT WITH ONE.



MY PENCIL, MY ERASER (2 OF THEM), MY LIQUID PAPER, MY WATCH, MY MONEY, MY STAPLE, AND MY POST-IT. ALL GONE.

MY PENCIL, WITH ME THROUGH O LEVEL.

MY 2 ERASER, IS THE ERASER THAT HAVE BEING WITH ME FOR SO LONG WITHOUT BEING LOST.

MY LIQUID PAPER, THIS LIQUID PAPER I BOUGHT IT SPECIALLY FOR MY O LEVEL AND THOUGHT I WILL USE IT, BUT DID NOT USE AT ALL. SO I USE IT FOR MY POLY LIFE.

MY POST-IT. I DON'T LIKE PEOPLE TO PLAY WITH MY POST-IT BECAUSE IT MEANT ALOT TO ME. BUT I FORGOTTEN WHY IT MEANT ALOT TO ME, BUT BLOODY HELL I LOST IT ALREADY.

THE WATCH, MONEY, STAPLE NOT ALOT MEANING TO ME, BECAUSE THEY ARE NEW PARTY IN THE PENCIL BOX. BUT AS AN OVERALL, IT IS STILL INSIDE THERE. OMFG!!!

IT'S NOT THE MONEY TO BUY BACK THIS MATTERS, BUT IS THE FEELINGS I HAVE WITH THE STATIONARY WHICH HAVE BEEN WITH ME SO LONG ALREADY.

Long time did not blog already. Had being very busy with school project this few days. Project simply sucks. And is sucks to maximum. I rather 100% test then the nonsense of project, participation marks and some other nonsense.

Currently blogging in school, have being block access to internet at home due to some fcuking brother I have. Main exam is coming. Sems 1.2 is coming to an end. SHIOK !!!

I will blog more more more when I am at home because I have many many many to say. :DD

give me a choice ...

400th post. Amazingly. Blogging for like march 2007 to now. More than 365 days already, but I just hit 400th post. I think I started blogging earlier, just close down that blog or leave it died. :DD

Did not blog yesterday, reason is I am lazy. My handphone is down. So I have no photos. And why I don't buy a digital camera?? because I am poor. No money to afford one camera for my own use. I don't know what is the plan for my handphone now, have till wait till I have the time to go sony erricson shop, which is just 100steps away from me.

Yesterday company lunch ROX !!! this may be my last time there. Provided I could get a job during the holidays. Well, the food was soso. Not as great as I think it will be. At most one table will have 10people, so our table have 12 people, suntec is just so fun and lovely compared to other places.

12people sharing 10 people food. Was feeling hungry even after the meal. Not as shiok as I guess. I think is also the first time I try beer. YA, no big deal, but according to my parents, if I take alcoholic drinks they will murder me. I mix the beer with tea. 80% tea and 20% beer. To make the colour look like it.

LOLS. Okay, we have great fun. Photos with others, shall grab from them ASAP. ;DD

I cannot celebrate chinese new year. So I spent the first half of my today rotting at home. Then when to my ahma and aunt house. Well, because we all are 'ang' family, so can go their house. LOLS. And tomorrow will be full day rotting at home. :((

Wednesday back to school for all the sufferings. Econs project coming to an end. MBS project coming to an end. And my CDS project too. Main exam is coming. Year 1 is off. Sems 1.2 is off. My sufferings will be ending soon.

I am so tired of facing all those nonsense myself. And I meant myself. What are friends?? Friends are people who have fun with you, but when you have trouble, siam you. That's great friends isn't it?? When I am suffering or facing trouble, it was then I know who is my real friend. Who is those that I can truly confide with. With no worries of being betray or turn off by them. Whenever I face problems, the only thing I want is my friend can stand by my side and support me. But the things is, friends who will only told me off is such a not supportive friends.

I am just crapping off. After reading a random post from some random blog. Be surprise, there's alot of blog reader here and there. Surprisingly kay?? maybe they don't know you, maybe they are just being KPO, maybe ... Well, I don't know, but I am definitely a super big kpo who read many people blog.

okay. super lengthy. off to sleep. nitex.

shopping please ... money please ...

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
Losing Someone
Where Your life is Going
Looked down on
Disappointment
Commitment
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Is this true?? well I don't know.

Was rather moody just now. I just came back from company birthday celebration and rehearsal for tomorrow big day. Our company reunion lunch. At ECP. Gonna love it to maxmum. My colleague always make my day. WITH LOVE !!!! ;DDD

i am happy in my own way ...

I feel so cui and tired now. I am sorry my friends.

I just want all this to be over. Chinese new year will no longer be happy. Will be stuck at home for the 2days. With no angbao.

If this is a nightmare, please let me wake up.

I am so tired. Very tired. Poly is hectic. It's tiring. Very tiring. I just hate all the projects. Regardless which one. I hate projects. And I hate the timing that all the project coming to a deadline when the festive seasons of CNY strike. Perhaps consider myself suay or lucky that I can't celebrate CNY this year. What about next year?? Damn fcuk up by projects. And test. They are just being purposely. Putting projects, test, main exam all side by side. Give me a break lah.

okay, time to fcuk off ...

This few days many many things happen. Many things strike me at one go. I am feeling very down this few days.

I have a fight with my brother yesterday. A fight means a fight, and I am not someone who give in easily. He sucks. That fcuker is just ball-less. Man without a ball is useless. He smash my phone. CB. I shall not elaborate more.

I could not go to sleep at all in the night. Thinking of all the matter. I broke down. I cried. I don't understand why at my age I have to face all this things?? Why?? From young, I need to learn how to be independent. What ever I want, I won't get it. I will have to work myself, in terms earn money. Even if I score well, there will also be no rewards but my mother only know how to compare me with people who score better than me.

Okay forget it. I am lazy to elaborate more. I only go to sleep after seeing interesting things that happen at the carpark. Ask me and I will tell you what interesting I SAW !!!

I went to school. I saw lipei at the stairs, I thought I will cry to her, but I did not. I hold on everything until during econs tutorial. I broke down. Somethings trigger my thoughts. Maybe because econs too quiet and I start to think about.

PS: I need to be quiet in econs because I don't want my participation marks to go any lower. It's irritating.

Thanks to rebecca chuying dorothy. Really. Thanks to them. Perhaps rebecca is the only one who can understand how I feel. Thanks my friend, really. And after they left, dorothy was a good listening ear. I felt much much better after that already. THANKS !!!

I just want this week to go by faster. Main exams are coming soon. Finally sems 1.2 coming to an end. It's like a dream come true. Nightmare is finally going to go.

Going to meet lipei for lunch tomorrow. Thursday as usual. Love her lah. :DD

IBLOODYHELLWANTTOGOSHOPPINGBUTIBLOODYHELLHAVENOTIME.

I am lazy to say so much on my blog. Because I know someone is reading. So tired of repeating the same thing over and over again. What my friend say is right, shall not mention the name. I feel so bless with friends who really will come to me and tell me all my bad things. Because, overall I am not a nice people to be friends with. As least they said it out, make me feel better. I rather a friend who shoot me in my face. :))

i am born to suffer in life ...

I do my tutorial. HAPPY. Sense of satisfaction. :DD Saw anf people in library today. Peeps from yr1 and yr3. :))

I am full of anticipation for this coming sunday lunch with company. Love it. It's gonna be a blast off again !!! OMG OMG ...

It's much much better this way. I feel relaxed and not so stress up. I have walk out from it. I know what is right what is wrong. And this is definitely the correct way. I will never make myself fell into this trap anymore. It's not the time yet. Once the time is up. I will fall. And I bet this will be the best fall I have. :))

determination is the key to success ...

I am so lazy to blog. Yesterday went to work instead. I slept at 11pm and when I wake up the next day, my phone was spam by huizhen. Huizhen sprain her hand, so I went and take over her. Therefore today not working.

But I am damn exhausted. Hate it. Whenever I work one day always like that. Tired. Now quite late already. Worried no seats for me at TRL. SIAN.

Next week will be a super busy week. I just hope that it could keep me occupy, not thinking too much. I want sems 1.2 faster go. Damn sian of 1.2. Making my life miserable. :((

Monday: busy
Tuesday: busy
Wednesday: busy
Thursday: busy + biz stats test
Friday: busy + FA test
Saturday: morning go ah ma house, night go work.
Sunday (CNY eve): lunch with colleague. At ECP. :)) dinner with family at home. ;DD

Going to go for job hunt during holidays. Feel like trying a new environment. :))

Off to study. :((

i duno how to keep myself occupy ...

Next week will be a busy week.

OB presentation + biz stats test + FA test.

BUSY !!!

I will not be able to celebrate CNY this year. Reason if someone in your family past away, the following year CNY, you can't celebrate. I am not suppose to go to anyone house for like 49 or 100days.

So my 2days CNY will be spent at home. I hope to go out with my colleague on the second of CNY.

BOO ... I don't have any excuses to shop for new tops and bottoms. :(( But definitely getting more tops and bottoms. I am not suppose to wear coloured shirts. So, I have to be in either black or white.

Today was the deadline for OB presentation. One project down. Clap clap. I think I irritated prashant. HAHA. Well, sorry for being so irritating.

I am late for 3times in OB. I think the teacher cheated our feelings. I thought she won't mark us late for OB. But she still does. LOLS. Perception error.

I woke up early to meet tingwen. She wanted to do her access and I want to print out the necessary stuff. I was so tired. SO SO SO tired in the morning. I ate bao and drink soyabean. And guess what, I ate too full and my stomach is damn pain. :((

Then is was OB tutorial. Fun I guess. Then late for econs. I think this is the first time I got so pissed off by econs. Reason: the graphs was just too not enough for drawing.

Did abit of OB and went IG. IG was fun. Super fun. I was the scorer for captain ball. Standing under the sun for whole day?? I am becoming darker already. :))

I am going to TRL tomorrow and work on sunday. :))

I am so tired. Off to sleep already. ;DDD

i know i know ... so dun remind me ...

Some meaningful sentence I find.


懒人怕什么？怕遇到比他更懒的人。


只要有希望就会有奇迹。


不要轻易放弃，否着对不起自己。


施比受更有福。


留个青山在，不派没柴烧。

It's all in chinese. LOLS.

Today is a fine day. MBS lecture. Behaving like monkey. Classmates is so cute can. Xiuhuan, bellra, koonteng, jollene. And dorothy and chuying. Well, they drew all over my MBS paper, and they enjoyed erasing it. :DD

I think tingwen was badly disturbed by us during MBS lecture. :))

Business statistics tutorial. Super quiet class. When it come to tutorial, a nice table to rest my head. Tired, super tired. I am getting more and more lazy to do tutorial and pay attention during tutorial. :((

And I am snatching a little bear with koonteng. We was like ...

xiuhui && koonteng : 我要我要 !!!

then dorothy join in, but she got 'kicked' out.

then jiayu was like : 什么东西？什么东西？

I love them lah. :DD

I went off to meet lipei. HAHA. I think we are so going to meet every thursday for lunch together. Went to prata shop. The food there is nice and overfilling. :DD

After telling her my 'rattle and rattle' I feel so so much better already. LOVE HER LAH :DD 5 years and going strong. :))

I still remember when we secondary 4, we keep on use the word 三年. Because we know each already for three years already. HAHA. Now is 五年.

I officially declared I hate school food. Regardless which canteen is it. :((

Went back do project and wait for the 2 of them. Was creating a nuisance of myself at their CDS class. HAHA. :DD

Lazy blog already. Blogging is a waste of time. But I enjoy wasting time doing rubbish things. :))

Tomorrow is getfit. It's gonna be a blast with them. :DD

Trust me. Believe me. I know what to piriotise. I don't know I spell correct anot. I am very down this few days. Project deadline. Homework piling. And nothing worth happy for me this few days. Alot of things happen. I will be STRONG !!!

i am numb already ...

这几天心情很差，真得很差很差。没心情，完全没心情。就算是微笑，也是假的。

This will be a super long post. Ready?? xDDD

I am so tired. Did not blog yesterday. Reason: was chatting with friends on msn. I miss the days in the past. Secondary school day. Yesterday was release of O level results. I still remember when I get my results, happiest is english B3 and most sad is POA B3. I put in alot alot effort for my POA. Expecting a A1 though. :((

Congrats to one of my junior. Before release results, aiya die already, english die already. After... better than me. :)) My primary and secondary school junior. HAHA. :))

And for those who did not score well, don't be discourage. Poly will be a great new start. It doesn't meant if you score bad, in poly you will score like shit. Determination is the key to success. You reap what you sow. Jiayou jiayou :))

On sunday. Also my working day. Tingwen is also at suntec. Selling 3.4. Pronounce it in chinese and you will know. LOLS. I want buy from her. But I want special order. I want the type is can see make until cannot see, but I still want can see de. LOLS :XX

Then they told me got meeting after work. And I am like, do part time need meeting meh?? (always when got meeting, I will siam first, they meet themself :] )Don't tell me boss want FIRE me?? OMGOMG. I don't want get fire. :(( then I thought, is boss going to scold me and embarrase me infront of everyone. :((

THEN !!!!



OMG can?? I was so shock. So damn shock. I was full of anticipation for meeting and see what boss will say to me. And they was celebrating my belated birthday.

PS: have not being going to work for like 2weeks plus lor !!!

I LOVE THEM LAH. OMG !!! Damn happy can.

Me and huizhen. She is a mother of one 5yrs old boy. His boy damn cute. And light too. I can throw him into the sky. Compared to my 18kg cousin. :((



Me and jiaojiao. :)) We have no age gap. Compared to others auntie and uncle. HAHA :DD



And me and juan. She's the nicest among all. BEST also. ;DD Her birthday is coming soon soon worr. ^^



This is exagerating. They are using a kitchen knife to cut the cake. Cute can?? :DD



Oh yesh, company lunch on CNY eve. This is the second year I am going for that. I will spam pictures on that day since we will all be nicely dress up. Rather than wearing working uniform. :)) full of anticipation for the day to come.

And yesterday was monday. Met up with OB group members to do OB project. After project go makan and. Dorothy milk's spilt. Ohhh, I meant, dorothy spilt soya bean on her. Reason: she show me something from her handphone, I want to snatch from her. Then her hand knock the cup, then she kenna. :((

The mess on the floor and on the table. :((




Today was MBS test. Not bad lah. A tricky paper overall. I was feeling so terrible during MBS test. We went out to eat. And I think the food I eat too oily, then plus drinking cold peach tea. Cold water + oil = uncomfortable.

During MBS test, I was like bladder bursting and super uncomfortable stomach. Quickly went toilet before the test end. :(( Even during FA also. So horrible feeling. Want vomit, but cannot vomit.

Jiayu so proud showing off her 'ben and jerry' discount coupon. ;DD



She's a santa clause. Giving away free gift :DD



And chuying the greedy pig who want more. :))



KT snap snap snap in class. Snapping us or ??? ;xx



Oyesh. And today is so fun can?? SO after FA tutorial. As we were still in class. And suddenly I saw hc and kt run out of the class. I was like. OMG what happen.

So as a super kpo. I went out too. And, malcolm open the door for me to run out to chase after them. And SURPRISINGLY !!! malcolm also took out his phone, and snap them as they run. Right behind me okay?? running too. =.=!!

Damn funny. The 2 of them and malcolm damn funny. HAHA :))

Well my camera skills not bad lah. Manage to took this. :)) edited this picture already. ^^




I am so tired. Tutorial not done. That's great. Giving myself excuses each time. Going to sleep first. So damn sleepy. :((

That's all. :))

it's a great start to end this things ...

I only reached home at 1240am after work. That's great. Now is 0112 am. Sleeping soon. I am very happy today. Super duper happy. Feel myself is bless. Photos up soon. I love my colleague. :))

Something GREAT happen that make me bloody emo ...

Even if I am the one who gave in, I am the one suffering myself. I am still the wrong party. Give me a break lah ... I know clearly what is going on now. I am always cheating myself. The truth is unbearable. I just want to break off from this. AND I SWEAR I WILL. This is the final time already. I have ENOUGH already.

Sometimes I just hope I can go back to the past. And not being a weak now. In the past, I am strong. But what happen now? I don't know. It may be funny to you all. But this will always be a shadow following me. You don't know how much it affected me. It is just something that will haunt me forever.

fcuk off bastards ...

Ever want to be Fit? - Yes!
Ever want to be Hot & Tan? - Yes!
Ever want to be the sports icon of the DAY? - YES!!!


If no, then maybe some of the reasons below can entice you to do so:
Want Seal Points? - Yes!
Want to do something together with your friends? - Yes!!
Want to just exercise but not sure where to, what to do or who to do with? - YES!! YES!!

I am tired. So tired. Sleepy. Lack of sleep. Initially going to start muggling in the morning, but slept till late and reach TRL late also. Saw qingling and rijia there. They now J2 already. And I am, year one. :((

My hand is painful. I think long time no exercise, suddenly exert too much force on my hand, then now muscle pain. SIAN :((

I smsed dorothy to ask if she pain anot ... The messages goes like this. :))

Dorothy: pain. back side also pain.
Xiuhui: no link. (in terms no link her backside is pain).
Dorothy: reason is ... keep on pick up the shuttlecock.

LOLS xDDDD

Haiz, I am very troubled this few days. Very troubled. No need find any listening ears already. It's sian already. I am also sian of saying, sian of thinking. Studying stop me from thinking, working stop me from thinking. I just want to stop thinking because I know I will fail. So why bother to go and care right?? This is called emo. I guess. :'(

I am going to work tomorrow. 2 weeks din work already. Feel like quitting seriously. Finding a job more relax and more near my house rather then to travel to suntec such a far place every single day. :((

i know my own limits ...

My current blogsong. Ever since hear from tingwen's blog. Fell in love with it. The songs lyrics ...

明天以后

泳:在你的记忆里面有一个我
在你最痛苦的时候陪你度过
难过过了天晴朗了我就走

林:你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的梦
在你的面前我不必保留
还来不及对你说
迟到的我的心动

泳:你的好你的坏
林:我的脾气你最懂
泳:我不要你心疼我(林:我不要你离开我)
合:明天的以后我们会懂
失恋的挫折让人变更成熟

泳:我对你感觉胜过爱情
林:因为有你给我勇气给我用不完的运气
林:其实也想好好爱你
泳:只怕到最后不小心让你伤心(林:我不怕会伤心)
合:对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
林:最后看你在别人怀里
泳:有天我会找到我的唯一(林:我并不是你的唯一)
合:还微笑祝福你


林:你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的梦
在你的面前我不必保留
泳:我从来没对你说
压抑的我的心动

林:我的好我的坏我的脾气你最懂
泳:我不要你来心疼我
合:明天的以后我们会懂
失恋的挫折让人变更成熟

泳:我对你感觉胜过爱情
林:因为有你给我勇气给我用不完的运气
林:其实也想好好爱你
泳:只怕到最后不小心让你伤心(林:我不怕会伤心)
合:对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
林:最后看你在别人怀里
泳:有天我会找到我的唯一(林:我并不是你的唯一)
合:还微笑祝福你

林:你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的梦
在你的面前我不必保留
泳:我从来没对你说
压抑的我的心动

林:我的好我的坏我的脾气你最懂
泳:我不要你来心疼我
合:明天的以后我们会懂
失恋的挫折让人变更成熟

泳:我对你感觉胜过爱情
林:因为有你给我勇气给我用不完的运气
林:其实也想好好爱你
泳:只怕到最后不小心让你伤心(林:我不怕会伤心)
合:对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
林:最后看你在别人怀里
泳:有天我会找到我的唯一(林:我并不是你的唯一)
合:还微笑祝福你

泳:爱情总让人折磨
林:所以我们才选择
合:做比情人更好的朋友

泳:我对你感觉胜过爱情
林:因为有你给我勇气给我用不完的运气
林:其实也想好好爱你
泳:只怕到最后不小心让你伤心(林:我不怕会伤心)
合:对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
林:最后看你在别人怀里
泳:有天我会找到我的唯一(林:我并不是你的唯一)
合:还微笑祝福你

this is how i feel towards you ...

Today school was alright. I was early for tutorial. I just simply hate 9am tutorial. Cannot late at all. :((

Well during econs lecture, we was spamming hengchang sms. And I think koonteng get so heart pain. Sorry KT. :(( I will ask jiaming to control dorothy for stop disturbing your hengchang. ;DD

And I did CDS project with wanting and simphoni. Well, for my CDS entrpreneur, I have no comments on it. Seriously, don't know which part of my brain go school enterprise. ZZZ. Calculus will be a better choice to score well I guess. :))

Dorothy came and pei me and we went lunch together at design. Honestly, I am jealous with those people with the open house t-shirt. Should have sign up, but don't want to miss my tutorial. :(( contradictions.

Then went to look for chuying. She live near TP, but always late for lesson. ZZZ.

A game of ....

BADMINTON !!!

PS: My CCA in primary school is badminton. AND AND AND ... I am a school team hor !!!! But went to secondary school, no offer badminton, join NPCC. :))

I am the (acting) referee. :))




The fight between dorothy and chuying for ... him?? (no need I say so much for which 'him' right)





Veri fake. -.-!! obviously 'modelling'??





And the life of ... picking up the shuttle. ;DD





More pictures lazy upload. No mood for study at all. Kill me please. :((

That's all. :))

i just refuse to accept it ...

有时候，你说的话是对的。只是因为我抬固执，我不要听。但是想了一想。我知道了。心情不是很好，所以用华语来表达自己。好过我用英语然后一大堆粗话。

我今天想了想。我说，如果我让别人生气，错的人是我。如果别人让我生气，错的人还是我。=.= !!

我告诉我父亲，他就说，忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空。别人犯我，我不气，若是生气，中他计。他的华语不错啦，只是英语半桶水。

我听不进去。

脾气不好就是不好。这就是我。如果你不喜欢我，就不喜欢吧，我不是一给容易让人讨人喜欢的人。我不会去讨好你。我给人的第一影响就已经不好了。无话可说。

我不懂如何藏我的喜怒哀乐。开心时，很开心。生气时，要爆炸。伤心时，心情不好。快乐时，笑笑笑。

一个字，烦。

I don't know what to blog. No pictures this few days. Kept my handphone in bag. Lazy take out often too.

Today MBS lecture. I think our class make a nuisance of ourself. Very noisy. Jiayu koonteng dorothy chuying. Noisy. Disturbing me. HAHA. Well, one hands cannot clap right?? :DD

After business stats tutorial. Pangseh chuying and dorothy. TP is having open house. Business so high high high. biz biz biz biz ness ...

And I went to meet lipei. Long time din see her already. She was saying that I look super lian with hair extensions. And now better. :)) but she said my fringe is weird. :((

We went outside school for lunch. And I went back to school to do project with chuying and dorothy. And they went for their CDS while I went library and muggle.

AND YESH. BLOODY HELL. FEEL LIKE GIVING MYSELF ONE TIGHT SLAP. REMEMBER MBS QUIZ. I REMEMBER-ED ALL THE WAY FROM SUNDAY, MONDAY, TUESDAY MORNING, AND I BLOODY HELLY FORGOTTEN ON TUESDAY NIGHT. AND VERY WELL, TODAY THURSDAY THEN I REMEMBER IT SO CLEARLY. THE QUIZ HAVE ENDED ON TUESDAY NIGHT. THERE'S GOES MY PARTICIPATION MARK.

Omg you know?? How I feel. After one and the half day, then I remember so clearly?? I still remember before MBS tutorial. Then after that, clean from my brain. :(( Okay, that's my foolishness. No comments.

I am so bored. Don't even feel like studying. Throw the books away please. Main exam please come and go. Sems 1.2 please go. And give me a diploma so I can get out from poly. Not because I hate poly, but because sian of studying.

Okay, I am emo. ZZZ. :(('

w-h-a-t-e-v-e-r ...

I am going to sleep soon. Tired. Was chionging my biz stats tutorial just now. Well done sia. Last minute do tutorial. Better than not doing it. ;DD

I think my econs tutor have something against me. Seriously, even when I sat last row, he still can pin point me. ZZZ. I don't like U-shaped classroom. Because, everyone will be so quiet and is like, haiz, he very what. :((

Get back all the results already. For midsems test did not bad. But I am scare I will become over confident and flung during end exam. No comments overrall. :))

I cut my fringe today. Together with chuying. We went out of school in between fa lec and econs tutorial. I also took out my extensions. It's damn irritating. Super irritating. I cannot be normal with my extensions. Wash must careful, comb must careful. IRRITATING :((

PS: at least I don't look so ah lian now. :((

Oyesh, and on tuesday. I injured my leg. Thanks ah. Damn painful. :((

Look at the red patch. :'(



I am also proud to present my full collection of rexgrip pen colours. Of course except the red and green pen. I don't like red and green ball point. I just bought purple. With love. :DD



A funny conversation with cy dor and rebecca. Well, if I remembered clearly. ^^

xiuhui: i am hokkien, u all wad ah??
chuying: teochew
rebecca: teochew
dorothy: duno leh
rebecca: penerakan??

LOLS. Dorothy is a penerakan. She's a nyonya. That make jiaming a baba?? ;DDD

Okay, I am lame. :))

Off to sleep, tomorrow 9am. :((

determination is the key to success ...

Super nice song. The campus superstar theme song. :))

The first batch 2007. Got from my beloved east spring secondary school worr. ;DD



The second batch 2008. Which is last year. And the male champion was from my primary school. Changkat primary school. ;DD



This year one. Well this year was like... lesser people and, none of the guys is very handsome. Compared to previous batch. Jiayu agree with me.

PS: Well, during mbs noshida caught me watching the video, because I like one of them very much. Sing damn well. ;DDD

From 1:45, the voice sang by the small girl. Her voice is POWERFUL and she solo that part. Damn nice. :DDD



Our class get back our MBS paper. And according to msnoshida, our class have the least failure. *clap clap clap* HAHA. I pass my MBS. *muahahahahha* ;DD

Off to do homework. Tomorrow I have to face my sickening econs tutor. And I am very sorry towards mskok because during FA, I am always so noisy. SORRY :((

i just hope ...

I don't know why. This few days have being very down. Very down. Like can get moody very easily. I think red alert is coming. Sian lah. I am not fully recharge. Still tired.

First 2 hours at TRL, unable to concentrate at all. Waste my time. I did FA tutorial. ZZZ. I am a stupid, I did not bring my liquid paper along, so my paper is full of cancellation here and there.

I was always telling myself 施比受更有福. Something like, it's better to be the losing party then to be the winning party. This is how I interpret this sentence. Maybe it's wrong, well my chinese is not that good.

好吧，用华语来表达我自己吧。我不知道为什么我会这样，为什么会有这种个性。我不喜欢我自己，很不喜欢，因为我知道每当我不开心的时候，我就会表现出来。当我一表现出来，错的人就是我了。但是，如果我放在心里不说，我会发疯的。今天的我真的是忍无可忍了。我爆了。爆了之后，我就默默地哭，让后就道歉。但是，我知道我一爆，我错了。说来说去，错的人永远都是我。

我希望我现在的心情不好，是因为我的红红要来了。我已经劲力不要再乱发脾气了。可能没什么长进，但是至少我自己知道我已经试了。好友曾更我说过，在这世上，你是不可能满意所有的人。所以说，不要去管他们这么看你，做自己就好了。但是无论是谁，当别人说他的不是的时候，他能不放在心上吗？

我嘴巴生来就不好。第一，喜欢讲闲话。第二，喜欢讲废话。第三，喜欢‘酸’人。第四，粗话乱骂。我相信，如果我生来就是一个哑巴，我一定不会得罪很多人。哈哈。

每一个人，只能看到别人的缺点，却看不到自己的。当你把别人的‘缺点’拿来开玩笑时，一定很好笑，但是如果换成别人把你的缺点拿来笑，你会爽吗？如果是我，我一定不爽。你是看得到我性格不好，脾气不好，几乎样样到不好。那请问你，你知道你自己的缺点吗？因为我自己已经是一个烂人，我不想对你说些什么了。

我从以前到现在，特别是以前，很多人都说我很丑。告诉你们吧，被人说丑的感觉是很像大便的。我不喜欢人家批评他人说他很丑，我自己是不会批评别人的洋貌。因为我自己明白那种感觉。

Okay, I feel better already. Using chinese to express myself. Better in english. Because I will use harsh sentence and words. Moody day today. :((

Pictures time. ;DD

On the way to bugis on friday with class girls. :))

I think is my father bus. ^^



Jiayu was suffering, a weight of tons on him. ;DD



I like this picture, like MTV like that. ;DD



On saturday. Went to my ah ma house for the one week thingy in the morning. I miss this sweety ALOT !!!




PS: his weight is 18kg. Heavy but cute. I carry him awhile, sure put down, too heavy already. :((

Went back to school for IG meeting and LT show. I siam LT show and went for IG meeting. ;DD






OPSSS !!! ;DDD



I love the main comm. I love the IG. I love having fun with them. Crapping and talking nonsense. Crap fun lovely. ^^

That's all. :)) time to head for bed ;DD

i must be strong ... i am not a weakling ...

One day never blog. I think I always regular blog daily, unless I am super busy. Yesterday slept at 11plus. Shiok. Woke up at 9plus today. Long time never sleep so early already. I don't think I am fully recharge yet. :((

My schoolwork is lagging. Heading to TRL later. I love there. Rather staying at home to grow fat, I can go there and hibernate. Main exam in one month time. That's lame. Just went back school and main exam coming?? project due date is coming very soon. STRESS !!!! :))

My helium balloon is still floating. ;DD

i am wrong ...

Life's still must goes on. This few days have defintiely strengthen the family. In terms I talked more to my parents. My parents telling us about the relationship of their own brotherhood with our uncle. And we all having a good laugh.

Kampong life is nice isn't it. In this busy world that we are living now, we tend to neglect those who really care about you. Perhaps in the kampong will be better for each and everyone of us.

Somethings I cannot do. I cannot watch TV for 1 week. So my littlenyonya is gone case. I cannot wear bright colour clothes, wear earring, manicure pedicure for 49 days. So I will look like a piece of shit when I am already a shit.

I cannot go to other people house for 49 days. That means chinese new year is gone. Well, chinese new year meaning is 2 days off from school and the busy world.

My grandmother may be gone. But she will always live in my heart. Without her, my father will not be there to know my mother and give birth to me. :))

I have lots lots of overdue picture.

I went to do hair extension with jy and rebecca. And many said I look like ah lian now. :((

Rebecca. :))



Jiayu :))



And mine. :)) am I a ahlian?? :((




PS: I think many are wondering where is my super lots of white hair. Well because I went for rebonding, my white hair is hide inside. At the start, my white hair grew from inside. This is a heredity problem because my brother and sister hair are both 'infested' with white hair too. I did not dye my hair and is very against again dying my own hair. :))

My ear all red. We was finding the earring fangli wore. And found. And I am being so anxious of wearing. I asked rebecca help me put. And she go press the thingy on top. And my ear get all red. :((



My most classic birthday present. :))




A packet of 'chang shou mian'. Or a packet of uncooked meesua. Thanks chuying. I confirm plus chop is her who think of this. :))

I love this helium balloon alot alot. DD:

Playing with it in the computer lab :))





thanks to those who wish me on 27th dec. :)) you are all being love by me. ^^ I have grew up. Or is grew old. Last year I am childish. I have spent my 16th year being a childish person. 17 will be a good start and begining. No more childish-ing. Time to think like a adult. :))

HAPPY NEW YEAR ;DDDD

Abit lag and slow. Here's my new year resolution. :))

1) desired weight of 45kg.
2) my hair to grow longer.
3) my bad character to change.
4) maintain my results.
5) shut my mouth from vulgarities.
6) be more mannered.
7) fill up my closet with tops and bottoms.
8) my pay to rise.
9) take care of my own health.
10) be respectful to my parents.
11) improve my english language.

and more I guess. In microecons, we learn. humans have unlimited wants. :))

Okay, nothing more to blog. Finding new blogsongs now. :))

there is only you and me ...

Finally it end. The 5 days of my ahma funeral. Tiring, but necessary. She left us and that's a fact. A fact to accept. She past away at home peacefully. I am fine. No worries. :))

For the past few days, juggling between school and this. Tiring. On wed, which is new year eve. I slept until 11am and I woke up with a very bad headache. Too many days lack of sleep.

Sleeping at 1plus and waking up at 8 for school. Tomorrow again. OB tutorial 9am. I don't think I am doing the tutorial. Got to catch my sleep first then catch my schoolwork.

My cousin :))





And me carrying the one who I love the most. He's the cutest kay?? ;DDD



PS: did something to my eyes, it look horrible like shit :((

And, oyesh, I am not suppose to wear bright colour shirts for 49days. Time to go for shopping.
I don't know what to blog. BYE !!

if this is a dream ... make me wake up ...